Wednesday, 5 March 2008

The Masochism Tango



So here I am at the cutting edge of the modern world. Sliding down the razor blade of life, as someone once said. But am I enjoying it? In a word - yes. It's the realisation that there is no magic formula, no secret code, to managing a function. It's really rather simple. Cross the i's and dot the t's (is this an instance of acceptable apostrophisation? Clearly, strict adherence to the rules would mean a no answer, but I struggle with the use of single letters, because there could be room for major confusion - is and i's - for example, and in any case, I really canno't be arsed to read through the forums on the Apostrophe Protection Society's website. I'm just very happy that there is an Apostrophe Protection Society - website and all) as someone else recently said.

Sometimes though, I can't help thinking that my nose has been caught in someone's left castanet. I can't really be specific, but what is happening right now for me somehow encapsulates the drive in modern economic models. It is poignant, difficult and challenging, and I am struggling to understand my own response to it. I have always been a left-leaning, class-conscious person and when all's said and done, antagonistic to the market economics which increasingly commoditise us all. I have also been (mostly) a hard worker and willing to go the extra mile in my job, and this has never really changed, although I have been royally fucked over by my employer on more than one occasion. However, I have also had my fair share of goodies, freebies and fun.

At the end of the day, I have always felt a loyalty to my colleagues which overrides other concerns. Where I am at present (metaphysically as well as geographically) is turning out to be a test of all that. I am one of the undertakers (or even euthanasers) at the death of the Job For Life culture, and it will not be put down without a struggle. Is it right that this change should happen? Probably. Will it make the slightest bit of difference? I doubt it. All I can do is focus on my CV. Another day, another doleur.

4 comments:

EP said...

So in other words a touch of power and it's gone to your head you bloody fascist?

:-)

marie said...

thank you for this comment dear ep,you expressed my thoughts.
Cher Alan, vous viellissez.. N'oublliez pas, les bourgeois, c'est comme les cochons plus ça devient vieux, plus ça devient....

JD Rockefeller said...

Who is this ep guy? Get him on my payroll!

Myeral said...

I shall stand upon my hind legs and WEAR SUITS!